My life as a fat girl: Elliptical workout

 

  Sometimes being shamed into fitness is amazing and other times it wears you down.    I'm a protectionist by nature.  I stress out and I obsess when I can't do something great!  When I do the park workouts I'm always stressed out about what the workout might consist of.  My upper body strength has a lot to be desired, but I try.  I can see how to an on looker it might seem like I'm not trying, but that thing they are seeing is a girl who is feeling defeated.  When something like push-ups is on the schedule I give up before I start.  I feel so dumb because I have never in my life been able to do a push up, and everyone around me is pumping them out.  If its abs, psht all day long I can literally do sit-ups for 30 min straight, and squats all day long..You ask me to do one pull up, yeah that's not gonna happen.  Today I did the park workout and my own gym workout.
    Today I went to "the girls gym".  It was my first time in there other then to take classes, and it was a really nice place.  Its was a little over whelming that the weight room in the girls gym was filled with a bunch of meat head dudes...-_- not cool....  So I decided to do the elliptical, and being a fat girl sometimes I feel a little lost in the gym so instead of wondering around I decided to do a full workout only using the elliptical. Don't ask me how I come up with this stuff, it just comes to me as I go.  I went so so so hard. haha I really did push really hard.  I did an hour in total on interval.  I will be posting a video of all the different moves so it is a little easier to understand. oh yeah ps I've lost 5 pounds!!! omg so excited!!!

Repeat until hour is up!!!Do normal 5 min cool down at end.

1 song-Elliptical squats

(you just hold on to the inner bars and squat down. I do up 8 count down 8 count)

1 song- Crisscross death punch

(You turn your feet sideways to the left and turn body to the left, then hold onto inner bars with you right hand"inside hand" and put your outer hand on the moving arm then step hand with the inside foot while crossing over your body with the moving arm repeat on other side)This works your obliques the motion will have you kind of doing a standing side crunch 

1 song- Rock out

(stay on beat to whatever the song is)

1 song- Figure eights

(with every step move hips in figure 8 motion) 

1 song- Oblique punches
(place hands on top of the moving arms and use your arms only to power the machine it will give you resistance in your arms and work your obliques)

My life as a fat girl: Holidays

  I'm not much for holidays at all, but I do have many girlfriends who love them.  I grew up in a half practicing Jewish family so we did have a tree but we called it a Hanukkah bush.  I do have fond memories of decorating the tree but we never had a Christmas dinner or anything we would all just meet up for Hanukkah and have dinner but nothing too unhealthy.
    As an Army wife I am around a ton of different kinds of people.  Most of them share the same opinion on our families Christmas traditions though.  We have dinner just like we always do and we wake up in the morning and open gifts.  We don't have a tree or any decorations just gifts that I saved up over the year.  I also do gifts a bit different than most families.  When my son does something amazing I get a gift, it can be big or small depending on budget, but I wrap it then I write a letter explaining why he is getting the gift. example: you haven't had any potty accidents in a month. I will go on about how happy and proud I am of him. Then on Christmas we read all the letters on what wonderful things happened in the year and open gifts that we can all be thankful for. Some people think it is cruel to do things this way, because when they are teens they might be bad as hell, but the way I look at it is if you got one gift then I guess you should try harder next year.
    Anyway, I have let myself get sidetracked...  The holidays are usually a very hard time for people health wise.  They binge on all the delish food on thanksgiving and Christmas.  Then when the new year comes around the gyms are littered with people and their new years resolutions.  I choose to stick with my holiday traditions and let things happen.  As a military family we don't have much money and I don't want my children to think we live some lavish life and start expecting things that we just cannot deliver.
    This year things will be a tiny bit different in that we are hosting a multifamily Thanksgiving.  Everyone is going to bring something and hopefully it can save everyone some money and bring our military families together, since most of us do not have the money or the leave time to go back to the mainland to be with family.  Being a foster child I know that blood has nothing to do with who your family is and I'm very happy to call all these ladies my family.
    I hope to feel better by then since I started birth control recently and have found myself being very depressed.  I haven't been showing up to my workout group, I stopped running and I just find it hard to get out of bed.  Sometimes I feel depressed to the point where I shouldn't be alone with my own thoughts.  I have only been on it for a month and I can see a huge change in myself, so my husband is going in to get snipped.  I think it will make a huge difference since I have a terrible fear of getting pregnant again and ending up 300lbs.  We have gone from a healthy intimate life to non-existent because of my fear.
    I know a lot of people get depressed during the holidays, but I really want to work hard to get out of this slump.  My grandma comes to visit in 60 days and I have been so off track she wont notice any difference in me if i keep this sloth like attitude up.  On a good note today I went to a birthday party for A's kids and I hated the cake(butter cream yuck) so I didn't eat it, all of it, shamefully in the bathroom like some closet fat girl.  Speaking of, I used to eat in my car so people wouldn't see me eating. I thought they would be thinking " why is she eating".  So, I have gone completely  off course, but the point of it is...don't let yourself get sidetracked in all the hustle and bustle of the holidays. Don't think you have to eat certain foods and do certain activities just because everyone else if doing it.  It's your life and your family so make your own traditions. Eat what you want and don't wait until January to start working out only to quit two weeks later.  Also, if you are hosting a holiday maybe try and make healthy alternatives to the norm.  Here in Hawaii we have purple sweet potatoes that i think are more sweet.  So instead of can candied yams I use the purple ones, and it's fun to eat purple food.  For mashed potatoes I use red potatoes, 2% milk instead of whole and try to let people add their own salt and butter.  Just a few little changes might help a twinge.  Do you guys have any tips on how to keep healthy during these delicious times?