I have been gone a while but i think I needed a little time to grow up. On my 21st birthday I got pregnant with my son and kept it a secret until he was almost due. I was a wild child who needed time to think about where I wanted my life to go. I made a ton of mistakes and even more good choices. I'm so happy I had him he truly changed my outlook on life. Then last year I got pregnant with my daughter who is now 3 months old somewhere around today, and just when I thought I couldn't change anymore... The strangest thing happened..I'm happy I'm free from my own mind. She has made me open my eyes and stop being made at the world. I used to want the people who hurt me to be accountable for their actions but what good is chasing revenge? I see now with my handsome little boy and my darling little girl that none of those people can hurt me because I already have the best things in life..Family!!
Family is all I ever really wanted in life and if I would have opened my eyes I would have seen them there all along. I would have seen how much they all love me, but I chose to be blind to all of it. But it is never to late and so every chance i get I tell them I love them and hug them. I'm so happy!!!
When I moved here I was angry that I was so far from home, but what is home you know blah blah what the heart is. Now I find myself moving from TN to Hawaii in a few months and I'm so excited. Not just because I get to be done with this unpredictable weather but because I get to start new fresh try again and be more open minded this time I can't wait to see Frankie in the water again and Delilah with her toes in the sand for the first time. I'm one lucky mama.. okay now that both of these kids pooped themselves..I guess that's my que to cut this short.
Friday, May 4, 2012
daily stuff
I wake up every morning in the most wonderful way. Delilah wakes up for her morning feeding, my hungry little bf baby, and Frankie comes in and says morning mama how are you doing I say fine thank you how are you he says I'm good then I get a hug and kiss and an I love you. He then crawls under the covers and waits until I'm done feeding her and we get up and make food together. The morning is one of my favorite times although it is hard to choose since all day with the babies is fun. Then we go to the room and we turn on rock-a-billy radio and dance dance dance!!!
We then go for our morning walk and we learn all kinds of new things, Delilah usually sleeps thru all of it, but we have fun.The little old couple up the street is always out and Frankie with his little spray bottle always helps them water flowers. The old man always gets a kick out of the lil mans help.
Then we come home and clean a little I will take advantage of the help while I have it I know one day he wont think cleaning is so much fun. There is always laundry to do with a solider husband and a 2 year old and a 3 month old, and of course me with nothing to wear haha. Frankie loves to learn his colors and help. I just can't wait until he is old enough to do dishes.
Nap time is promptly at noon every day. Because you wont like him when he's tired haha. So nap time is mine and baby Delilah's special time. She will eat again, and will have some tummy time. Then we do mommy and baby work out time From 12:30-2pm then more cleaning.
I know I should start packing but I don't even know where to go from where I have gotten. Hawaii seems so far but I know it is coming up quick, and our lease is up at the end of June so we will be homeless for 11 days haha I voted on camping but I think my husband wont let my vote win. I am so excited for our cross country trip to California there is a million things I want to do when I get there give my Grandma a big giant hug is first on my list tho. I guess I'll be needing to adjust my routine to fit in packing. It will be weird leaving my first home as an adult but I'm ready for whatever life throws at me.
We then go for our morning walk and we learn all kinds of new things, Delilah usually sleeps thru all of it, but we have fun.The little old couple up the street is always out and Frankie with his little spray bottle always helps them water flowers. The old man always gets a kick out of the lil mans help.
Then we come home and clean a little I will take advantage of the help while I have it I know one day he wont think cleaning is so much fun. There is always laundry to do with a solider husband and a 2 year old and a 3 month old, and of course me with nothing to wear haha. Frankie loves to learn his colors and help. I just can't wait until he is old enough to do dishes.
Nap time is promptly at noon every day. Because you wont like him when he's tired haha. So nap time is mine and baby Delilah's special time. She will eat again, and will have some tummy time. Then we do mommy and baby work out time From 12:30-2pm then more cleaning.
I know I should start packing but I don't even know where to go from where I have gotten. Hawaii seems so far but I know it is coming up quick, and our lease is up at the end of June so we will be homeless for 11 days haha I voted on camping but I think my husband wont let my vote win. I am so excited for our cross country trip to California there is a million things I want to do when I get there give my Grandma a big giant hug is first on my list tho. I guess I'll be needing to adjust my routine to fit in packing. It will be weird leaving my first home as an adult but I'm ready for whatever life throws at me.
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