ARMY Wife

I wonder sometimes if there is any Army wives out there that are like me.  If so I haven't found them.  I have a son that is about to be two years old. That's him up there.  I couldn't ask for a more awesome kid.  Let's be honest he is stereotypically cute, and also being his mom I think he is the cats meow.HAHA
Also I have a great husband.  A man I have known for 10 years.  But he is in the ARMY so we don't get to do a lot of stuff together like we used to. I try to keep myself busy I go to the gym as much as I can but with no baby sitter or friends it can get tuff.

Oh and my best friend and sister Lydia.  W/out her I would go crazy, and now that I am without her I am indeed going crazy.  I didn't think it could be so hard to find a friend that would be fun and not sensitive and spontaneous.  I miss my friend so much.  I have had a very crazy past few years but it looks like this is where I will be for a while.  Altho, I would do anything to go back to Idaho.  California was nice but let's face it I will never have enough money to move there, and I would really rather spend my time trying to get my friend Lauren to move to Idaho with me. I found this beautiful and smart, and please people lets not forget in shape.  She is my sometimes gym partner.  Mostly I

go it alone.  She is really nice and I got along with her right from the start, but I think sometimes I can be a little to ruff around the edges and insensitive for her tastes I try to be really nice around the people I meet out here but I always seem to be too harsh.  Trust me people I'm not a jerk I just don't have time to sugar coat and blow smoke up your butt.  But J-dog is pretty much one of the only people I can talk to out here...( that is when she answers the phone)lol

Sometimes I wish I was born somewhere else so maybe I wouldn't feel so compelled to tell people how it is, but then I think back and think of my sister.  She would spend forever getting ready and then come down stairs and look right at me.  She was looking for my face and what it said to her. If it said something like.....hmmmm I dunno then she would say, "WHAT!!!" I would say, "oh nothing, just....Are you dooonne with your hair?" She would march right back up stairs knowing that flat spot she had been obsessing about had been spotted, and oh course she could leave the house like that, but I would know it was there and be looking at it, and if I can see it other people can see it.  I miss my friend. I love my friend. I miss how HONEST we could be with each other I always knew for sure I wasn't going to leave that house looking like some crack head barbie.. mmmmMMM not me!



Sometimes, we need to sit back and giggle, but maybe this California girl wasn't made for the south...I dunno maybe some girl will come along that doesn't care what people think of her.  Maybe my dream friend will come around I feel like I need freaking EFriend or something to find a friend. I mean if you saw my at the park with my son all you would see is tatts and piercings and you would think I'm aweful, but I love my son we have tons of fun together but I think it is unfair to him to not have any friends either.  I can tell he needs someone to play with.  So maybe It need to suck it up and find some soccer mom and play nice and then go home and cry at what a lie my sad life has become haha. I really don't want that. So someone somewhere in TN please Nancy's need not apply lol I just want if anything a play date at the park for my son. It is sad that I don't have friends out here but I will get over it I don't want him to feel as alone as I do.  Well, we are going for a walk now. Maybe make a snack or something. I'm done venting. I'm sure I have offended someone.